So I took time to adjust my lenses as i peeped through the multidimensional microscope of life and on this view I saw a filthy sewage tank infested with hearts that are clogged with the burden of unexpressed emotions. Much of the world population live only a quarter of their emotional lives expressed while the rest is stuffed up in our unconscious where it is left to accumulate and rot consequently adding to the filth. We have engulfed our hearts in a semi-permeable sieve which weighs and determines which emotions should flow out through it and which ones shouldn't. As well as determine the extent to which the expressed emotions are actually expressed. We allow only the tiny smooth crystals of socially accepted emotions to get through while the not so friendly rough particles that really define us are trapped inside and pushed back into the unconscious.
Pride and fear have taken a firm stand at the gates of our hearts blocking the free flow of emotions. Nothing beneath our pride must get through as it will injure our so called dignity if left untamed. So, it is hidden from the outside world and sometimes even from ourselves; our conscious awareness. We'd rather lose out on the things we need than degrade ourselves to get them. Our fears are masked by inappropriate defence mechanisms that shield us from the reality of who we really are; the little vulnerable boys and girls that live in the restricted depths of our hearts. Instead, we display ourselves as fearless giants that lack insecurities. Cowardice does not lie in having fears but rather in disguised bravery and the inability to confront one's own fears. True bravery is manifested in confronting and defeating one's fears and not in running away from them. Unfortunately, we stretch only as wide as it is safe. Displaying only the 'cool' emotions; the ones that don't get our faces all wrinkled up or rather nerve wrecked.
Mediocrity has become the norm accommodating the stench of rotten unexpressed emotions that have grown weary from the vain struggle for an outlet. The traditional patterns injected in our minds govern the ways of our hearts. Therefore, we have a generation that's too uptight for it's own good; too casual for God's liking. Nothing must be done to the extreme. It has been deemed not safe to love too hard. Men are not permitted to cry. An emotional man is perceived a weak man so he is forced to hold it in and harden up a little just so he can be respected. Our advice is filled with mediocre talk like 'don't get too zealous' 'oh you easily get excited' 'take it slow' 'don't easily trust' 'don't stretch too wide lest you break so easily' 'harden up a little' 'don't be so vulnerable'.... It is regarded as unsafe to lay one's eggs in one basket least tragedy hits and they all break so we lay them in various places hoping we might eventually stumble upon fertile ground and gain a fortune.
Risk is too deadly a word to mention. So we have leaned too hard on the notion that 'Life is not a game of chance' and have used it to keep ourselves from spending our emotions on lottery tickets. Whoever said that putting your all in something that doesn't work out is a waste. Total bull crap!!! The lot in life is saved for those that give their all to chance and do not regret a single loss but use it instead to build their journey to the top. Unfortunately, we are too reserved to ever give anything that much. Too scared of loss to invest. Too afraid of reaction to act. So we choose to miscarry our emotions instead of birthing them into action cause we fear the cost of the reaction. We'd rather the babies just die unborn; their carcasses all stuffed up in our little hearts.
Sad part is we have never stopped to ask how much of that junk are hearts can take. It's like we keep taking it all in without consideration for where it actually goes. Pardon me for the nasty in this but our hearts have become synonymous to public toilets that receive all sorts of waste from whoever cares to take a leak or dump but are never flashed. We are like the careless managers of these toilets who have simply not cared enough to get them cleaned so we go around carrying the decomposing wastes of so many users and it stinks! We stink!!! It's a polluted generation in need of space to let! All the space in the world is not enough to contain the heavy hearts of billions of people.
Just as toilets need to be flashed after use, our hearts were never meant to keep waste. They are meant to serve as a transitional point for the inlet and outlet of emotions. Your heart was not created to be a storage tank of pain, bitterness, anger, remorse, guilt, denial, the list goes on... These emotions are meant to come and go, not stay and make your heart stink. People will come in your heart and leave droppings of hurt. It's up to you to flash it out and save space for new comers or to harbor the waste and let it dent your heart. The wrong does not lie in you being hurt, it lies in you housing the pain. It's okay to feel pain. Accept it and allow the tears to flash it out. Stop trying to be super human. If crying was a sex role, God would have placed the gift of tears only in women. Yes, tears are a gift from God to be of help to both men and women, adults and children; otherwise they'd dry up as we grow older. Crying does not make you a child. Yes, children cry over the least of nitty-gritties and my call to cry is not one to do over hunger, a toy or mummies breastmilk. The things that provoke tears from our eyes grow more complex as we become more mature. We transition from crying over primary/basic physical needs to more complex/secondary emotional needs. The overall point is to save the world some space to let by letting it all out!
Our hearts were never meant to be denied the opportunity to receive emotions either. No one builds a toilet to be an idle decoration. Denying people an opportunity to be in your life is like denying a pressed passerby the opportunity to release because you are too lazy to flash your toilet. Stop playing safe! You do not master a game by holding back your cards. Nothing is better left undone. Take a chance on love and give it your all even if you don't get it in return. Find something to believe in and look foolish for it. Take risks and make sacrifices. Put your life on the line. Invest your time in something worthwhile. Stop walking on the side walks and get get driving in the main lanes. The way to self actualization is to stretch beyond your limits. Be ready to break and when you do, pick the pieces and try again.
What we don't understand is that decomposing emotions don't just vanish in thin air as though they never existed. Instead, just as solids decompose into gas, when emotions fail to make their way out through the sieves we have placed on our hearts, they decompose their natural solid form and compose themselves into an artificial gaseous form that can easily get through the sieves and manifest themselves in disguise. When anger is not released the right way, it regenerates itself into a fake smile just so it can make it's way through the sieve and manifest itself in deeds of vengeance. When love is not released the right way, it regenerates itself into denial so it gets through the sieve and manifests itself as hate. When pain is not released, it manifests itself as bitterness. When dreams are not pursued, ambition regenerates into self pity and manifests as low self esteem. Therefore, we have a world filled with artificial people; so fake they can't even recognize themselves anymore.
Stop the pollution and let the emotional cycle flow. It's the pattern of life. Nothing is perfect. Good emotions are just as vital as bad ones for the journey to perfection. People will release droplets of love, receive it and flash it in. Others will drop pain, receive it and flash it out. Some dreams and goals will require sacrifices, make them. There's no harm in pursuing your goals with emotion. Work is more effective that way. Emotions are the fuel required for motion to take it's course. Love what you do with all your heart. Chase it till you get it. Even if you don't, at least you gave it your all. Just don't refrain from the cycle or keep anything in. Offload it all and die an empty man. The grave only has room for your body. Heaven only has room for your spirit. Leave the rest down here. Unblock your heart and let it flow. For every emotion you hold in, you add to the world emotional blockage and pollution. The need for space to let is a call for everyone's participation.
